Starting to live with my body

(LighterLife Route to Management – Week5 Day4)
This is a tricky one – the new body. I mean it’s the same body. It’s the same OLD body. I certainly got my old boobs (the very small ones) back, and my face feels more my own, and all that. But having been about the same size for [...]

Weight management – why can’t it be easy?

(LighterLife Route to Management – Week5 Day2)
Why am I so surprised everytime things go well? I am, to a point that it feels absolutely silly. Why oh why can’t I just accept that sometimes things just, well, WORK OUT OK.
Yesterday’s preventive measures, i.e. my well-in-advance-thought-plan around eating and drinking worked out a dream!! I came [...]

Coping strategies: now that alcohol is here to stay

(LighterLife Route to Management – Week5 Day1)
Ah, gone are the days of Abstinence when alcohol was merely a distant thought (look at this entry from January!)!! It’s the beginning of my Week 5 on Route to Management, which is to say the only reason now I won’t be drinking any alcohol is if I decide [...]

An angry word about sugar

(LighterLife Route to Management – Week4 Day7)
Back in February I made a pathetic attempt to think about sugar. Now I’ve done some proper thinking. And some reading. So hopefully this makes some sense.
To get to the bottom of this – to work out whether I’d believe this or not – I bought and read 2 [...]

Route to Management – week 4

(LighterLife Route to Management – Week4 Day5)
It’s been a very messy week!!! And it all starts and ends with one thing: NOT ENOUGH SLEEP. Everything else follows from that. Let’s do it one by one anyway, just remember to think back to ‘and not enough sleep’ for each one….
I’ve not been sleeping enough.
That’s been [...]

Coping strategies: Take your time

(LighterLife Route to Management – Week4 Day3)
My head’s nearly exploding!! Although this is only the second day with my mum visiting, I’m struggling to find the time to do all my planning and reflecting, and it’s driving me BONKERS!
Before she arrived I was anxious, worried, nervous, yes, but looking back now I realise I was [...]

Coping strategies: Stop right there!

(LighterLife Route to Management – Week4 Day1)
I’m freaking out, a bit. I have now had 3 bingey nights in a row. I’ve tried to work it out based on my mood & food diary in order to STOP IT ON ITS TRACKS. NOW. Man, I never thought I’d be ever so happy to have kept [...]

You live and you truly learn

(LighterLife Route to Management – Week3 Day7)
For the longest time I have firmly believed that no matter how well other areas of my life would get sorted, there are such HUGE unresolved issues with my father that I would probably fall completely into pieces should I ever attempt to resolve them. Hmm. Actually that’s not [...]

Route to Management – week 3

(LighterLife Route to Management – Week3 Day5)
This week I have struggled with TRUST a lot.
I’ve been either going to bed or waking up to thoughts like when am I going to crack? Should I just get a binge over and done with? Wouldn’t it be better to ‘fail’ now rather than later? etc. etc. [...]

Coping strategies: don’t buy ‘anything that fits’!

(LighterLife Route to Management – Week3 Day3)
I’m still spending too much money on emergency clothing when what I really need now is a full wardrobe in one size only. There should be no more getting up in the morning, realising nothing fits – whether too tight or too loose – and then nipping out somewhere [...]