Route to Management – Week 9

(LighterLife Route to Management – Week9 Day 6)
What a strangely ‘normal’ week. Don’t quite know how else to sum it up.
I have found my first real food trigger.
Let’s get right down to it: porridge is fine any time, day or night. Comforting it is, addictive it is not, nor binge-triggering. Not based on this [...]

Coping strategies: Keep your Abstinence mentality

(LighterLife Route to Management – Week9 Day5)
Finding myself in reflective mood this week. A fellow LighterLifer said something in our LL meeting on Friday that I woke up thinking about the next morning. We had a couple of new girls in the group just starting out on Route to Management and we were asked to [...]

The necessary evil(s) of planning

(LighterLife Route to Management – Week9 Day4)
My relationship with planning – WELL!! Part of me so obsessed, part of me wanting desperately to not care, and yet another part of me somehow understanding there is a middle ground there somewhere. Somewhere.
I’m keeping so many records it’s bordering on madness! I write the food & mood [...]

Coping strategies: Take the true compliments

(LighterLife Route to Management – Week9 Day3)
I think I’m on to something here. I attended a big party last night and during the night got a very heart-felt, genuine compliment from a childhood friend. I think I last saw him in November last year, which was during the heavy drinking, heavy eating period I went [...]

Someone explain this thing called normality!

(LighterLife Route to Management – Week9 Day2)
I wish someone would observe a perfectly normal person without any eating disorders and write a book about their eating and how they cope with life. It would be absolutely fascinating to read, after everything I have read, heard and learned about people with eating and drinking problems. NORMAL [...]

Maybe it’s not food at all, maybe it’s the DRINK

(LighterLife Route to Management – Week9 Day1)
What triggers what? I have had vague thoughts around the whole trigger business, but I should really spend more time trying to understand how it works. I have binged too many times in the past 2 weeks to let this slide!!!!!!!!!
Let’s review some undeniable FACTS about my recent binges: [...]

Pasta – making friends with the enemy?

(LighterLife Route to Management – Week8 Day7)
One good day is all it takes. And yesterday was a good day. I didn’t binge, although of course I would like to NOT have to mention it as some sort of bloody achievement!! I met up with a friend and somehow, after quite a tough day at work [...]

Route to Management – Week 8

(LighterLife Route to Management – Week8 Day5)
Stuck in the middle. That’s mainly how this week has been going.
I haven’t planned much.

I have avoided my feelings.
I have binged.
You may think there’s text missing from between the headings above, but REALLY, those 3 little sentences say it all for this past week. I haven’t planned much. I [...]

F-f-f-falling!!

(LighterLife Route to Management – Week8 Day4)
I’m falling behind myself. Besides the title of this post being one of my all time favourite songs to jump up & down or head-bang to (especially if you have long hair which I don’t), it captures my feelings to the last crumb. And yes, I know ‘falling’ isn’t [...]

Coping strategies: just go home

(LighterLife Route to Management – Week8 Day2)
I’m currently away to see family and old friends. The first night I went out with my sister and had no problems with anything, but the second night I had planned to meet up with ex-colleagues and friends for a big double leaving do…
I arrived in the bar about [...]