(LighterLife Management – ongoing)
When people ask me “what do you think” about things they love or adore but I find odd or repulsive – I will say something like “It’s really great, although I wouldn’t want it”. I mean, I can’t just say “Great!” and be supportive to someone else’s choice. I have to actually undermine it with a selfish statement. How rubbish is that?!?
Let me explain myself. This past week I realised I have such difficulty defining ‘who I am‘ and what I prefer, that whenever I am asked to commit an opinion about anything at all, I panic and think if I say I like it they’ll think that’s what I’m like. I guess the logic that my subconsciousness is applying here is that if I say I think a flowery sofa is Great! then next Christmas or whatever someone will buy me one. DUH.
This is – needless to say – creating further difficulties for me by annoying the hell out of people I say these things to, and making me focus even more on things I don’t identify with. *SIGH*
But wait. I have found a new direction to my shambles of a life. I shall tell you about it soon :D
Filed under: Mgmt Year 3 Tagged: | Life, Observations
