How to remember this

(LighterLife Management – ongoing)

Yesterday was an awesome day, and I wish there was a way to remember it next time I’m not feeling as awesome.

First and foremost, I had had enough sleep. I woke up refreshed and curious about the day ahead. Even though it was going to be an office day :) Even though it was going to rain all day!! I always sleep better on Abstinence anyway because I won’t have been drinking any alcohol the night before, but I’ve been sleeping a lot and well lately. Anyway, I simply woke up and felt READY. That’s the magic of enough sleep. I know it works exactly like this, but it’s amazing to experience it every now & again!

Secondly, I felt comfortable and confident in the clothes I was wearing. Seriously!! I had gone through my wardrobe the day before, including the boxes of ‘one day’ and ‘just in case’ clothes tucked away in various corners, and re-discovered some old favourites that now fit!!!!! So effectively I was wearing clothes I last wore (anywhere near as comfortably) in the summer of 2009, and not only feeling pleased about fitting into them but even more importantly, nothing was restricting my movements, nothing was too exposed, my loose bits were tucked somewhere or supported, and I just felt GOOD.

When you lose a lot of weight, your shape shifts at a very different pace than your weight comes off. I feel that the near-if-not-final shape shift has just happened to me, largely aided by the two hot yoga classes I went to earlier this week (those were also the only hot yoga classes I’ve been to in nearly 4 months…), and I am now actually AWARE of my body shape as it is at the moment. I’m also very aware that my upper thighs have stopped chafing painfully, which only those of you who have actually experience it will be able to truly appreciate!!

Additionally to just feeling well-rested and comfortable, I got a couple of thoroughly lovely comments about the shift in my size & shape, which helped in turn for me to stay aware of how good I was feeling, and appreciate how it must be projecting off me when I went about the day. One came from a guy who simply said “You’re looking WELL” and another was from a girl who told me I was looking fantastic. And then she didn’t say anything else, which was the best part of her comment :D None of that crap of ‘shouldn’t you stop that now’ or ‘haven’t you lost enough’.

I know some of this is external but my feelings weren’t based on the external comments, just amplified by them. The best way I can sum it up is that yesterday I felt more myself than since I can remember.

And that’s what I’d like to remember :)

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