I’ve had several work-in-progress explanations for my recent Abstinence and its significance to me, but in early July on the day of ending my Abstinence I hit the jackpot whilst rambling on as usual to the boyfriend.
I said this is the end of managing my life with food. So simple.
And this finally helped him understand all the ways in which this is not about food, and never was. It also helped me feel like I had managed to sum up all the gazillion little things that were going on for me around this before and during Abstinence. All that complexity that goes into the word ‘simple’…
I feel happy now with the thought “I used to manage my life with food“. It’s the truth, and as truth is pain & beauty in equal parts, this summer has quite fittingly been a celebration and a mourning in equal parts. A celebration for moving forward with a very different outlook on eating and nutrition and nourishment and my body and my wellbeing and everything!! And a mourning because it really is very very sad that for a long time I have managed my life with food. It feels appropriate to acknowledge that because it’s a very significant fact about me.
I am also properly moving on to a different type of life. I have finished my coaching training, set up a company and headed for a new career in helping people take full responsibility for their lives in order to be all they can be. It’s the most rewarding work I’ve ever done in my life :)
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