Cutting back like normal people

(LighterLife Management – Month 8)
I’m trying something ‘normal’ people do: CUTTING BACK.
One day back in December, or could have been November, I woke up one morning and noticed that my just washed favourite pair of jeans felt way too tight around the waste, producing a bulge that is both uncomfortable and unsightly – the donut.
AND. [...]

Watching the weight at year end

(LighterLife Management – Month 7)
These are the facts: 2 years ago around this time, I weighted almost 90 kilos. 1 year ago this time I weighted at around 80 kilos. This time, I have just reached (upwards) the 70 kilo mark.
Do not be fooled to think this is a result of mindful and patient weight [...]

Intervention complete

(LighterLife Management – Month 5)
I almost didn’t watch it. I nearly almost couldn’t. If I had had wine or chocolate or anything yummy but unhealthy in the house, I would’ve quite probably have downed it in order to keep watching.
What, you ask. Freaky Eaters: Addicted to… chocolate, which is a reality program about ‘extreme’ eaters. [...]

Negotiating with yourself

(LighterLife Management – Month 5)
Should I stay (home, isolated but safe, in control) or should I go (out, exposing myself to the ‘elements’ and temptations)?? That IS often the question. And because I still tend to slide on the direction of trying to please other people, I often go out and take my chances, sometimes [...]

LL vs WW

(LighterLife Management – Month 4)
It has to be done. I would’ve left it alone but in my power plates class there was a girl who went on about doing Weight Watchers at the same time. We got talking, and I said I’d done WW twice but always gained the weight, and NOW, after LL am [...]

Management – Month 3 summary

(LighterLife Management – Month 3)
AUGUST. It’s been a strange month.
The control thing
I’ve been terrified about losing control, as I did last summer, when I cheated myself into believing I could handle ‘it’ on my own… Well. I shouldn’t say losing control, more like slipping back to where it’s difficult to return from. I mean, seeing [...]

Going nowhere in particular

(LighterLife Management – Month 1 Week 3)
You might think I’ve given up and disappeared altogether. Well I haven’t! For the most part though, I have felt an increasing need to isolate myself and just exist for a while. That’s the best way I can describe the past couple of weeks.
Food. Hmmmm. I don’t know. I [...]

Managing after Route to Management

(LighterLife Management – Month 1 Week1)
Stretching the concept of time. Feeling less compulsed to write every day. Feeling no less compulsed to plan my days and be conscious of what I’m eating, how I’m feeling, and where is it all leading to…
I do feel like I did earn a break from constantly analysing my thoughts, [...]

It’s the end and the beginning

(Lighter Life Route to Management – Week12 Day7)
This is REALLY it!! From tomorrow onwards I’m on my own. Which of course isn’t even remotely true, but surely I have to bring some drama into this!?!?!
I think I may be feeling too calm for my own good… is there such a thing? I don’t know. I [...]

Route to Management – Week 12

(LighterLife Route to Management – Week12 Day6)
This is it. I am ‘done’. I’m at the start of my life. I am so uncertain of what’s going to come next!!
Chocolate and cake
Seems almost irrelevant to talk about this, but let’s do it straight up because sweet things have been the trigger to try on this week. [...]